Oh, love. This is supposed to be one of life's most joyful seasons, right? But what if your heart feels ripped in two? What if all your old definitions have fallen away and you can't remember who are you anymore? What if you are scared, sacred, raw, real--all at once?
You're safe here. Here, we honor your undoing (how else can you rise from your ashes?). We honor you . . . exactly as you are. Here. Now. Weeping, laughing, somewhere in between. It's all part of your story. It's all part of your phoenix becoming.
If you follow me on Facebook or Instagram, you know I'm struggling through these holidays. After a topsy-turvy year (including the passing of a close family member two months ago), I'm often gulping with tears and unspeakable ache. We are relearning how to be.
You may wonder why I share these grief stories, why I reveal such an intimate pain. On the premiere of The Rob Bell Show, he spoke of the power of "me too." I strongly believe in this, the tender and real connection of sharing our vulnerable truths.
We all grieve. We all ache. We all heal (eventually, somehow). And if my words, my experience can help you (or you, or you) find a hint of hope, a glimmer of me-too? Then I whisper thank you. Thank you.
Kindred, whether you are aching this holiday or you are wholeheartedly joyful . . . I wanted to create a gift for you. A reminder that you are loved (as is). A reminder you are (more than) enough.
I know how pivotal it has been for me personally to carry a reminder, whether it be a mantra in my mind or a special "beauty armor" piece of jewelry (or, more recently, my first ink) or a physical card. I've crafted a set of printable cards for you to hold close especially during the holidays, or any time you struggle.
with much love through the holidays (and always), Amanda
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